contently discontent

I only know how to be me, though I'm still trying to figure out exactly who that is.

"Where is the man who can fulfill the desires of this sensitive nature which is as fiery as it is delicate? For years I have searched in vain! In vain! I have found men! Men who are all alike, to none of whom I could submit with respect and declare ardently: You are my God on this earth, and the absolute master of this passionate soul. For this reason my affections have been irresolute and short lived. I searched for a goodness I was unable to find and which perhaps does not even exist on earth. Now I no longer search for it nor desire it: for that reason I am more composed."

17th June 10

Gertrudis Gómez de Avellaneda y Arteaga en su Autobiografía.